I’ve received some messages from a handful of people complaining that I haven’t posted anything in a while. Sorry, guys. It honestly hadn’t occurred to me that anyone was listening. Or watching. Reading. You know what I mean, dammit. I’ve been struggling with some things lately. I’ve dutifully kept my journal, but I haven’t had [...]

Deb just left. She came by to hang out. Which immediately made me suspicious. Deb does not “hang out”. Well. Only in the interesting places. I guess that doesn’t translate. I meant her butt and her boobs. The joke is that I’m going to seduce her some day. So I make a game of looking [...]

I’m sitting at a table in Izzy’s, having some coffee. I know. Big surprise. I feel like a ghost revisiting my former life. This place has been a part of my routine for a long time. Now it feels different. Too crowded. Too noisy. I spent the afternoon downtown. Just wandering around. Shopping. Yes, friend. [...]

Back home. I’ve curled up in my big chair with a book, a blanket and some hot chocolate. I expected that the phone would be ringing off of the hook, but it hasn’t. I called Agnon to tell him I was back. He didn’t ask where I had gone. Just asked “feel better?” I told [...]

I’m on my way home. I stopped at a store here in Little Switzerland for a drink and munchies. I scared myself when I came out of the store. My first thought was that my car had been stolen, because it was just gone. Then I realized that it hadn’t been stolen. It was right [...]

Had a rather severe encounter with Susan’s room-mate tonight. She was supposed to be with her parents this weekend, but came back early. She wasn’t at all pleased to see me. She pissed me off by talking so smart to Susan. That she didn’t get away with doing the same to me surprised her, and, [...]

I’m in Boone, North Carolina. Visiting an old friend. I slipped the proverbial restraints and escaped my nurses. I just had to get away for awhile. I don’t feel like I’m crazy. But everyone else does. Seems like the more I’m around all that, the more I’m acting like what they want me to be. [...]

Okay. Maybe I’m crazy. Deb, and a friend of her’s (who turned out to be a psychiatrist), came over with breakfast. While we were eating we discussed how I was feeling. How I was recovering. Was I getting my strength back? Etc. Then somehow we wound up discussing my state of mind. What kind of [...]

I got out of the house today. I’m still sort of weak. Which I don’t understand. I mean, I’m not a pharmacologist or anything, but I didn’t think I should be weak as a kitten from taking a few too many pills. I kinda of wonder if what they did to/for me at the hospital [...]

Amy visited me today. Anyone remember Amy? We spent the night together a while back. I hadn’t seen her since, and didn’t expect that I would ever hear from her again. She was at Izzy’s and made some remark about me. Deb just happened to be there and, being Deb, she overheard. So Deb introduced [...]