I am so tired of fighting all of you. Is there nowhere I can go where I don’t have to construct these concessions to the demands of other people sensibilities? Isn’t there some dark corner of the world I can escape to where I can just be myself, where I don’t feel like I spend my days apologizing for who and what I am? Isn’t it possible to go where no one will ever find me and I can spend my days in solitude, unashamed and unapologetic for the person that is me? Is that really the choices? The numbing despair of life-long pretense vs.  spending the rest of my life alone? And if I choose the latter and disappear into the shadows, will you let me go in peace? Why won’t you let me go?